scribble scrabbles

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 14:39:00 +0000

there are 4 things that cannot be recovered:

The stone.....after the throw

The occasion....after the lost

The time........after it's gone

The word.....after it's said

One more for me which i tik its hard to be recovered:

The trust.....after it's broken

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Mon, 02 Nov 2009 10:23:00 +0000

i feel like i am repeating and repeating over and over again =(

am i on the right track?

oh heck, 3 more chapters and i am done!

my life is boring in terms of entertainment side..

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sun, 11 Oct 2009 01:59:00 +0000

so i have receive a message from her..

i wonder what she is expecting, becasue, she shoot me..den say she is not blaming me..-_-"

i wonder what the message represents..

if it represents drastic measures and that is to isolate me for the next 1 month from the other teachers and workloads, or bad mouth behind my back..den ok lor..but then again, lesson learnt, this is usually how people use the tactics on others when one is leaving..

if strong words are used such as wasting efforts and love on me..den ok lor..cos u r the first person tt i felt u dun deserve my cheap tears after clarifying matters with the person tt i ought to

how do u expect me to accept ur dinner invitation when you just said all these things about me and dun even feel that it was a misconception about me?

seriously, even if i send the email to u, i still wont tik i would wanna maintain a frenship..cos i hav finally seen ur true colours

it feels like secondary school u noe..

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 03:29:00 +0000

i am downright emoing now..

esp after tt dream and tt vomitting

i feel sick and nausea..

i wish i could banish all the negative thoughts

adiel where r u???

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sun, 04 Oct 2009 03:37:00 +0000

i chance upon this email by our psychologist, lee yet wei..n it made my day =)

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: 'I am blind, please help.' There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, 'Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?'

The man said, 'I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way.'

What he had written was: 'Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it.'

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Moral of the Story: Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively

Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear.

Great men say, 'Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness.... In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience.'

This post is dedicated to the people around me who are feeling uptight, gloomy, upset and stress..

things will get better soon..jia you!!!

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 15:38:00 +0000

there's nothing for me to update actually!

hahaha..there's tooo many things going on in my mind!!!

politics is vexing and boring..

i m glad i m leaving it soon..happy happy

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 15:46:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sun, 02 Aug 2009 10:04:00 +0000

home-wise..things r better now..for the car is coming on tuesday

school-wise..still no news besides a reciept

work-wise-expected..things are no longer as it may be..conflicts and complaints is an everyday thing for the three of us

somehow or rather..i tik its time to leave soon..i dunno what to expect on monday..hahaha

but i m lucky to have a sweet boyfriend, other half and cuzzy to share my woes..

thank you=)

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sat, 25 Jul 2009 15:46:00 +0000

n so everything seemed to have settled

i realli cant ease the i dunno..!

frustrated as i may be

we r all under her mercy

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 11:56:00 +0000

this is getting out of hand..

i realli dun get it! so what, even if i pay i have no rights to use the car?
come on..i really am pissed off by this matter..if u dun show me ur attitude at least i will just close my eyes and take nothing has happen..the fact tt u dun wan to talk to me directly yet wan me to noe tt u r pissed pisses me off..bullshit!

i realli feel like saying all the vulgarities to ease my anger..damn it man..

so what i close the door hard? come on la..its juz tt u r a light sleeper..n u nv close the door harD? joke of the day..u practically slam everything tt u hav to show ur displeasure..oh well..except ur fav laptop..my god..i m getting pissed off as i type..i shld juz eat my dinner watch smth funny n slp..

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 11:22:00 +0000

two weeks has passed and it all seem so zoom zoom to me.. been zooming around different classes and handling situations that i have never ever thought of..learning and picking up new things from the experience teacher..

i m always trying to go home on time..but somehow it just failed terribly..n when i reach home i feel the tension at home..n i will just creep in my own room..watching extreme make over(home edition) and jon and kate plus 8..somehow watching it for only an hour would zonk me out..

expected and predicted things happen liao..back to the life of one yr ago..life is not as peaceful as it is liao..so sad!

somehow or rather i m glad i hav a tv in my room..

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 15:40:00 +0000

my sis is back..

n i can feel the tension regarding the usage of the car..

omg! life is back to where it is a yr before..

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Fri, 03 Jul 2009 00:54:00 +0000

been suffering from insomania this week..

feel so full once i wake up..

i tik i need to learn to panic less and do things more slowly

even when it comes to dealing with situation

i realli dunno what u r tiking..my mind is constantly working to understand and decipher why u would say or act in this manner..just so tt i would not panic or cause any rift/misunderstanding between us..

i realli need to have a break from everything

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 13:50:00 +0000

this week pass by soooooooooooooooooooo fast! its wednesday!!

well..i noe..pass by slowly also complain..fast also complain..

but i dun like it when it passes by soooooo quickly but i hav yet to accomplish things tt i need to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...

zonk out

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sat, 27 Jun 2009 05:12:00 +0000

today is a good day! no doubt the weather doesnt show it..

changed my bed sheet and packed my cupboard!

it feels soooo good to have my own room!! wahahaha

anyhow..this week been busy bee for me!

but working hours seemed to pass by super slowly..

have gone out three times this week! my goodness! sooooo mani times!

guess i have prepared for my off day mood liao..

but it feels good in a way cos at least i m exhausted but i get to channel it out!

woohoo~but the after effects is to clear tons of work!

thanks lyn and yet for yesterday! it was fun havin retail therapy and xing wang!

we shld always shop first den eat ok? hahahaha

n of cos sara for being soooooo sweet for asking lyn n yet to bring out to destress! wahahha

alright..work mode soon..

things to do:

-plan 2 weeks of lesson for national day (whole skool)
-progress reports
-learning corners
-mark workbooks
-weekly evaluations
-edit newsletter

so i have to x9 for everything! wahaha
nvm start off with the easiest!

you go girl!

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sat, 20 Jun 2009 10:20:00 +0000

my leave for next week got cancelled

due to my colleague being quarantine..

thus the lack of man power

actually they wanted me to take monday and tuesday instead

but i felt that there isnt a point..

i m feeling so down right now..probably pms

but tt didnt stop me from remembering what you said last night

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Mon, 15 Jun 2009 13:50:00 +0000

just when i thought i could have a break from everything..
enjoy the cool weather

all is gone

no words can describe how i feel now..

no words..

thanks ppl..for discouraging

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Tue, 02 Jun 2009 13:06:00 +0000

i m so tired today..first time having parent teacher conference..

i have never expected myself in this shoe before..

today i feel so guilty..i have a new kid..but becos i was so busy..i did not give her the attention that she needed..

why do we lack of manpower?

everday just buzz by as i get my things done in school

this week is going to be hell..overtime and parent teacher conference..

wat else, overview to write..

i admit i m short tempered..

n i cant control it..

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sun, 24 May 2009 09:45:00 +0000

ANd so..i pass by the current still building ite opposite yet's place..

n it dawn onto me, i can make a difference too by spreading my little knowledge to them..

i have been calculating my finances and speaking and discussing with people about the money

of setting up a capital for my 'future' childcare, tsk tsk.. not worth it..unless i realli do have a

huge capital, and reserve and standard high quality childcare, else i prepare to wash my

backside..i m still floating around i noe..but at least i m weighing some options right?

suddenly am so determined and confident that I CAN, YES I CAN complete and pass my degree!

No matter what obstacles I CAN DO IT!

SO teaching and taokei! u r my options!

i still tik i m not saving enuff money for future use and rainiy days!

i need to find alternatives!

n shop less!

n eat less!

i hope this strength stays till 2011!

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Fri, 22 May 2009 09:22:00 +0000

it just dawn onto me how fragile frenships can be..

maybe i m plain lazy

but to me..a real friendship is never being measured with quantity-meaning meeting up the number of times..

we can meet up alot of times but still not knowing what is happening to the person..

thus, i don't know..to me..i just feel like telling this person..grow up and just let it go..

alot of things cant be said at this moment..you have to wait for a person to be comfortable..

n of cos u need to have the skills to psycho someone to be comfortable to tell you..which is never easy..

dunno la..juz pretty confused with whatever you are thinking..

i do know that if i interfere, it will turn into a big issue from a little small issue..

so i will juz keep quiet ba

n nurse my stomach flu

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sun, 10 May 2009 03:46:00 +0000

Mother's Day mini concert/ celebration ended with a good note on Friday! i am quite amazed by how it had turned out well and of cos i do feel a sense of accomplishment! we took 2 weeks to work things out n 2 days of rehearsal! woooohoo..guess i m getting accoumstaned to doing last min things! i do fret out still but not so serious liao! at least still can slp.hahaha! WEll done everyone!!

i felt super touch when all the parents awws and coos when the pgs/n1 came out to perform. and all the parents support that they have shown towards their child, taking pictures and all..realli touches my heart! n i m pretty proud of my twins! they show no stage fright and dance their heart out!

ok..lets end it here cos i have a pile of work to do such as observations for each child!

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Fri, 24 Apr 2009 13:31:00 +0000

wat will u do if ur husband spits out in anger that he wants a divorce from u juz becos u dun have the capability to help him get a certain amt of money?

marriage is brittle as it seems..

anyhow..my life is soooooooo boring!! such a standstill

i cant wait for a break! seriously!!! i wan my brain to stop functioning for a while! i need to get away from the ugly side of life!

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sun, 19 Apr 2009 10:36:00 +0000

i find my life pretty boring as it is..
its always about work and nothing else..
but sometimes i guess, it gets dull when i onli have work to talk about
n not others..i dun have the time to flip through magazines and c wat is the nicest clothing out there..or rather, i chose to spend it on sleeping..
i was excited about my new room, but after spending the whole day packing, i have decided tt when it is done, i have more cleaning and unpacking to do..so am not looking forward to it.. cos it waste my precious weekend..the onli thing i enjoy the most now is have nice food and sit in a nice restaurant and eat..how boring can i get? n i no longer have the spending power tt i used to have..so wat else can i buy besides food? lol..i cant wait for this month's art work..oil painting! i m soo gonna learn and do one canvas for my own room! cool!

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Sat, 04 Apr 2009 03:47:00 +0000

i wan to rant all the ugly feelings out..but i noe i cant..

i m always trapped in this horrible horrible feeling..

i juz cant shake off expectations..

but this time it isnt being known as expectations

becos u said everything urself

noreply@blogger.com (落葉歸根) — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 13:49:00 +0000

i tot talking things out with u would make things better..bt nooo...
i tik u interpret and took things out of context.
i can feel the improvement and the change..
but its juz not right!
u trying to help does not mean snatching things..
omg! this is terrible! i noe i can relax and slack since u take intiative and do literally EVERYTHING!

but this isnt how partnership shld be..
n i noe u r tryin to build a repore with me but thats not how u shld do it!
silent moments is fine since all of us need our alone time!
but u trying soooo hard to come up with a conversation even when i m super tired and bad mood
it aint ending up well..
i told myself after the tok i will change my attitude towards u
n take away all the resentment i hav as much as possible
BUT..those r gone..u added new ones
hai! i can only grit my teeth cos u urself need an alone time..

n as for you..i m trying very hard to balance work life with social life..
i noe i get tired and stress up easily..
but i m willing to sacrifice
i noe u meant well
but i realli need a break esp its a friday!

juz leave me alone